Saturday, May 30, 2009

That's one funny kid!

Benjamin put this swim diaper on his head today and ran around with it on for the better part of the morning. He is so funny! I'm glad it was a new one right out of the package.
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Wednesday, May 20, 2009

I'm done.

I'm tired. I'm fed up. I'm sick of trying. I quit. I don't wanna do it anymore. What in the world am I talking about? Hmmm. I really don't know myself. You see, I've been through the ringer recently with some stuff at church--not my fault, not Jerry's fault but taking the blame. Taking the blame for decisions that were made that we had no part of. Taking the blame for decisions that were made that we were a big part of. Taking the blame for things that have never even happened. I used to see my church as a place of refuge. I loved to go there. I liked the people (for the most part). Today, I feel like I don't like any of 'em. I just wanna go and find somewhere where I'm anonymous--where no one knows I can teach class or cook a meal or help with the youth. Today, I wanna be one of those people who go into the building, sit at the back, sing their songs, leave before the closing prayer and have NO responsibility. Then, maybe without responsibility there is no criticism, no gossip about you, no hurt. But, I can't. God hasn't answered my prayers yet about it. He hasn't given me or Jerry direction for what we are to do. So far, His guidance has only been to "stay in Judah". I don't wanna stay in Judah. My soul cries out because I am weary. I'm done. I'm tired. I'm fed up. Where is that living water because I am really thirsty....I don't wanna "do church" anymore. There has got be another way to go about this....